I RAN AWAY!
I actually did it!
FINALLY!!!!
Oh I can totally imagine the look of ghastly horror on mother's face. I'm just disappointed I wasn't there to witness it. Oh boy have I done it now.
Remember Blake? Remember how I was almost going to run away well, I'll start where I left off.
So Blake left me at the bakers shop and after that for a few days I walked by there to see if he ever came by again, but he was never there. And just when I was finally going to give up on finding the man who had so easily managed to charm me, there he was. At the palace. My palace.
So his accent my have been country but his mother was the eldest daughter of a Duke and his father was just about to be knighted for doing god knows what.
Of course this resume would never appease my mother.
As part of my training I am now to attend each and every thing held at the palace and in the town. Even things like court and small ceremonies. So there I am and there he is. I'm sure he hadn't seen me yet because he stared around at the million's of dollars worth of artefacts our family has collected so nonchalantly it seemed as if he couldn't care less. I smiled, I mean it's not just a bunch of pricey things, it's not just years of carefully acquired pieces, it's kind of my family's legacy and my inheritance so to speak.
We went on to knight his father, the Queen dubbed him whatever-she-did, I looked around like I had better things to do which is when he actually realized I was the girl he met the other day. And surprised he was!
When the soiree was over he came over and we had a little conversation, it went something like this;
"Your Highness," he bowed.
"I guess you do go to fancy parties and you don't clean up so bad either"
"Well, the Vanderford's do have a reputation to live up to, I do my best"
"Vanderford? Using your mother's name I see"
"That is something we have in common already"
See! He's a charmer alright.
And then we kept running into each other over and over, and I couldn't help but develop a certain fondness for him. He's kind and sweet and smart and nothing like the snobbish Princes and Dukes I've been paraded around. And since his grandfather doesn't have any sons, one day the old man's title's and lands will belong to his eldest daughters first born son, which lucky for me is Blake. That does make him a slightly better prospect to introduce to Her Majesty but only slightly so. I'm pretty sure all she wants is a Prince second in line to the throne so that there is no conflict and he is also from way up the hierarchy. A boy raised in the country, the son of a lowly knight despite the fact he will be a Duke someday will never be good enough for my mother even if he makes me smile.
A few days ago he just asked me why I won't introduce him to my mother when it was pretty damn clear there was a little more than old fashioned acquaintanceship going on here, so I had to tell him. And even though he didn't say anything I could tell he was ticked off. He tried to explain that I was my mothers only heir so she couldn't possibly disown me and anyway I would be Queen someday she shouldn't get to back-seat-drive me life.
And yes, his point was clear. It was right but still. Even if she is horrible sometimes, she is my mother and I wasn't going to go up and disappoint her like that. The Cortez house has a certain air of respect around it, of course if I ever told him this he would think I was putting him down which is why I can't tell him. And besides I love my mother (no matter what I may of may not claim.)
Though after a lot of coaxing I gave in. I took him to see my mother and boy was she mad! I was ready to see fumes coming out of her ears.
later she yelled at he saying how could I be so careless as to let some son of a common knight as to court me. When I tried to explain that he wasn't just some son of a common knight she just sighed. It was the first time I saw how old and tired she really was. I felt bad for pushing her so far she had to left her mask of strength down to really show me that she did love me and she did care about me.
"Don't be careless with your heart," she whispered.
She even sounded tired. I just wanted to hold her and tell her I would never go against her again but she had already given me and in and she had taught me never to let a golden opportunity go.
"Mother please"
"You don't want to end up like me"
"No, no I don't." I felt bad saying those words to her face but she asked for it.
"Would it surprise you if I said I married your father for love and not his title?"
OF COURSE IT SURPRISED ME!
I always thought she married father because he was a Prince.
"What I'm trying to say it love is- it's not enough. Not for people like us, Cassandra"
"But-"
"Why don't we put it to the test then?" she took a deep breath and cringed as if she was going to say and do something that she would come to regret. "Run away with your boy"
"WHAT!?"
"Just listen! If he does take you away you will know that although he may love you now someday it won't be enough because he asked you to give up your throne, your birthright and didn't just take something from you but thousands of people. You will know he cares more about his heart than anyone elses and he's not the man for you. But if he takes you and brings you back he understands that you have a bigger role in the grand design and he must let you play it and if that happens I will personally bless you two all the happiness in the world and throw the biggest wedding of the century. Despite what you may think I only want what's best for you, Cassie"
I was touched. She wasn't the Ice Queen after all, she was just old and lonely and had learn to protect herself which just meant she forgot how to let others in. But mostly MY MOTHER CALLED ME CASSIE NOT CASSANDRA!! Like wow! She must really want to prove something to me.
And so I did it. I don't quite believe it was my mother's idea but I did it. I ran away. Now I'm on a farm a few miles away from where Blake grew up and he is out fishing. It's not something I ever thought I'd be doing but I was the one who wanted out right? Well here's my out.
I actually did it!
FINALLY!!!!
Oh I can totally imagine the look of ghastly horror on mother's face. I'm just disappointed I wasn't there to witness it. Oh boy have I done it now.
Remember Blake? Remember how I was almost going to run away well, I'll start where I left off.
So Blake left me at the bakers shop and after that for a few days I walked by there to see if he ever came by again, but he was never there. And just when I was finally going to give up on finding the man who had so easily managed to charm me, there he was. At the palace. My palace.
So his accent my have been country but his mother was the eldest daughter of a Duke and his father was just about to be knighted for doing god knows what.
Of course this resume would never appease my mother.
As part of my training I am now to attend each and every thing held at the palace and in the town. Even things like court and small ceremonies. So there I am and there he is. I'm sure he hadn't seen me yet because he stared around at the million's of dollars worth of artefacts our family has collected so nonchalantly it seemed as if he couldn't care less. I smiled, I mean it's not just a bunch of pricey things, it's not just years of carefully acquired pieces, it's kind of my family's legacy and my inheritance so to speak.
We went on to knight his father, the Queen dubbed him whatever-she-did, I looked around like I had better things to do which is when he actually realized I was the girl he met the other day. And surprised he was!
When the soiree was over he came over and we had a little conversation, it went something like this;
"Your Highness," he bowed.
"I guess you do go to fancy parties and you don't clean up so bad either"
"Well, the Vanderford's do have a reputation to live up to, I do my best"
"Vanderford? Using your mother's name I see"
"That is something we have in common already"
See! He's a charmer alright.
And then we kept running into each other over and over, and I couldn't help but develop a certain fondness for him. He's kind and sweet and smart and nothing like the snobbish Princes and Dukes I've been paraded around. And since his grandfather doesn't have any sons, one day the old man's title's and lands will belong to his eldest daughters first born son, which lucky for me is Blake. That does make him a slightly better prospect to introduce to Her Majesty but only slightly so. I'm pretty sure all she wants is a Prince second in line to the throne so that there is no conflict and he is also from way up the hierarchy. A boy raised in the country, the son of a lowly knight despite the fact he will be a Duke someday will never be good enough for my mother even if he makes me smile.
A few days ago he just asked me why I won't introduce him to my mother when it was pretty damn clear there was a little more than old fashioned acquaintanceship going on here, so I had to tell him. And even though he didn't say anything I could tell he was ticked off. He tried to explain that I was my mothers only heir so she couldn't possibly disown me and anyway I would be Queen someday she shouldn't get to back-seat-drive me life.
And yes, his point was clear. It was right but still. Even if she is horrible sometimes, she is my mother and I wasn't going to go up and disappoint her like that. The Cortez house has a certain air of respect around it, of course if I ever told him this he would think I was putting him down which is why I can't tell him. And besides I love my mother (no matter what I may of may not claim.)
Though after a lot of coaxing I gave in. I took him to see my mother and boy was she mad! I was ready to see fumes coming out of her ears.
later she yelled at he saying how could I be so careless as to let some son of a common knight as to court me. When I tried to explain that he wasn't just some son of a common knight she just sighed. It was the first time I saw how old and tired she really was. I felt bad for pushing her so far she had to left her mask of strength down to really show me that she did love me and she did care about me.
"Don't be careless with your heart," she whispered.
She even sounded tired. I just wanted to hold her and tell her I would never go against her again but she had already given me and in and she had taught me never to let a golden opportunity go.
"Mother please"
"You don't want to end up like me"
"No, no I don't." I felt bad saying those words to her face but she asked for it.
"Would it surprise you if I said I married your father for love and not his title?"
OF COURSE IT SURPRISED ME!
I always thought she married father because he was a Prince.
"What I'm trying to say it love is- it's not enough. Not for people like us, Cassandra"
"But-"
"Why don't we put it to the test then?" she took a deep breath and cringed as if she was going to say and do something that she would come to regret. "Run away with your boy"
"WHAT!?"
"Just listen! If he does take you away you will know that although he may love you now someday it won't be enough because he asked you to give up your throne, your birthright and didn't just take something from you but thousands of people. You will know he cares more about his heart than anyone elses and he's not the man for you. But if he takes you and brings you back he understands that you have a bigger role in the grand design and he must let you play it and if that happens I will personally bless you two all the happiness in the world and throw the biggest wedding of the century. Despite what you may think I only want what's best for you, Cassie"
I was touched. She wasn't the Ice Queen after all, she was just old and lonely and had learn to protect herself which just meant she forgot how to let others in. But mostly MY MOTHER CALLED ME CASSIE NOT CASSANDRA!! Like wow! She must really want to prove something to me.
And so I did it. I don't quite believe it was my mother's idea but I did it. I ran away. Now I'm on a farm a few miles away from where Blake grew up and he is out fishing. It's not something I ever thought I'd be doing but I was the one who wanted out right? Well here's my out.
